Why

What is the point of inner strength?

In the end, all inner strength will do for you is carry you on to tragedy after tragedy.

Even knowing this, if I stumble, they're gonna eat me alive.

I find the easiest way to push forward is to imagine some sort of enemy that gets pissed off at every success.

Maybe I romanticize the events in my life too much, but you know, whatever works.

Your Coefficient of Friction kind of chaffed me

There is a proverb out there that says those who do not learn from the past are doomed to repeat it. Once. Twice. Thrice....You can only fold a dollar bill 8 times.

I keep unfortunately and unintentionally observing patterns I've observed before. It all seems to go back to circa 2005. I just don't know what to make of it.

Am I to believe the universe is trying to tell me something? Or perhaps my subconscious has a desire for something from that time? If you're looking for the number 23 then that is what you will find. Or perhaps I'm just paranoid. Or maybe I've kind of got my mojo going in such a way as things are sort of carrying on in a similar way as back then? I really just don't know.

I'll tell you one thing though. I'm not sure if its that I just don't have any chase left in me, or that I haven't had anything of worth to chase, but for my sanity I need to find out.

And the burning question that eats away at the tiny man who steers this crazy ship is as always thus: Left or Right?

Monologue de alma

Form. Ideas. Questions.

Can opposing forces exist in harmony? Unity is more than a concept, it is the name of the system that governs the workings of the world.

If one could know North, wouldn't one have a pretty good idea of South? Flame cannot imagine what it is to be cold, but its kindling could have.

Effort. Confidence. Action.

Full throttle? Don't settle.

Are the things I can accomplish with little effort pointless? Victory is fleeting yet permanent.

My enemy? Idleness, but it is also your friend.

Connection. Friendship. Love.

I am programmed for one thing but whats best is, another? Biology is a bitch. Freewill isn't free, exactly.

Inevitable fail? Well now, that is the question isn't it?

My soul at peace.

Reaching goals. Overcoming obstacles. I feel like I've reached a new height in physical fitness and more specifically skating lately. Everything seems to be going well though all around really. In fact there's really only one thing I'm yerning for, but its the kind of thing you can't force or rush if you want to succeed in the end, you know?

So for now, I guess I'll keep on doing what I'm doing and one of these days I'll chase that last piece of my happyness down when the universe sees fit to put me in a situation where I can.

Under the sky so blue, you can almost forget there's a burning orange up there as well.